jiggle it just a little bit
|note: this is not my stomach, although, i can make mine do this|
it's been 4 years since i had my last child. after he was born, the migraines started. within 5 months i was 127lbs. for my 5 foot 3" frame, that is quite small. and i loved it.with the migraines, came anxiety and panic attacks. out of nowhere. i had no idea what was going on. i also noticed skin tags and my skin was an odd shade of greenish gray. that's the only way i can explain the color. my hair was falling out and eventually just looked thin and lacked shine and luster. so, i started tanning and cut my hair in a cute short style. you couldn't tell my hair was thinning and my skin tone was "for a year i kept the weight off. i've always had a weight issue. it runs in my family along with diabetes, high blood pressure and high cholesterol. [thankfully i do not have those issues]. early 2009 i had gained a little bit of weight, which was fine because i had actually gotten too small [who would have ever thought i'd be saying that].
2009 passed and 2010 came. alyssa's tumor grew and here we go in the hospital. more weight gain. only about 10lbs. still not so bad. i decide i've had it. i become a vegetarian for health reasons. mainly for alyssa. tumors grow [so i read] or feed on sugar...i lose 20lbs. cool.later that year in july i go on a missions trip. i.am.in.awh. this is the best experience ever! i am renewed! i am refreshed! i will never go home. well, i do. but i don't want to. lima is amazing! i contract a bacterial infection in my intestines. from getting the shower water in my mouth. great.
i didn't get sick until i came home. phew. that would have been bad with a long plane ride and going through customs and all that, plus the drive from atlanta back to alabama, but, within hours of walking through my front door, i'm throwing up and having the most painful stomach cramps. the next 3 months are like this. i am dizzy, nauseated, sore stomach, diarrhea, throwing up, light headed...and guess what? instead of losing weight...my body changes all the food i eat [even soup] into sugar instead of energy. i couldn't understand it. until i did.
after my missions trip experience i came home having fallen in love with the childrenthere. if would have been able to, i would have taken a baby home with me.
after being sick for so long i had to get off of all my medication [including birth control] and basically start from scratch. and since i had the baby itch again, i didn't get back on birth control. seeing as that was a good idea i also remained off of my meds so that it wouldn't interfere with my pregnancy. i am very fertile and i did not want to pass any medication to my child. so, we started trying.