Saturday, September 10, 2011

10 years has it really been 10 years?


i don't really know what to say.  i can't believe that it has been 10 years since the attacks.  i remember i was sound asleep in my sister's apartment when my brother in law woke me up.  i was on leave in hawai'i.  it was 3:56am.  he turned on the t.v and said that the twin towers had been hit.  at first i didn't understand what he was saying.  why would someone attack the twin towers? another war in hawai'i? [there are a set of condo's that are called the twin towers and it made no sense to me] it wasn't until we were watching the live news coverage that we could see it was new york.  

right before our eyes,  in what looked like slow motion, we saw the next plane approaching the second tower.  we thought it was a replay.  until we realized it wasn't.  

talk about surreal.  to know we were watching history in the making at that very moment and we could do absolutely nothing to help.  what a feeling.  

confusion set in.  i was feeling helpless.  and then, i could see the people jumping.  that was the hardest thing to watch.  to know that you are going to die because there is no way out, and the fire is getting closer, the air becoming thicker and thicker.  no.way.out. no other option.  your only choice left for you to make is to jump.  to get that last breath of fresh air.  you could hear them hitting the pavement.  i couldn't believe what i was seeing. it was like we were watching a nightmare before our eyes.  

another plane crashes.  more fatalities.  then another.  what is going on?

we have never been the same.  

i have seen us unite since september 11.  i remember rows and rows of houses with flags displayed.  to see that, it makes you proud to be an american.  

it has been 10 years.  are we still as strong as we were a year later? two years later? what about three?  
 too many innocent lives were lost that day.  

husbands lost wives
children lost mothers
wives lost husbands
children lost fathers
fathers lost sons
mothers lost daughters
fathers lost daughters
mothers lost sons
sisters lost brothers
brothers lost sisters

one life lost is one life too many
may america continue to heal
endure this type of pain ever again!

as we reflect back on these last 10 years, may we remember all the brave men and women who gave their all to save the lives they did.  the men and women who took over the hijacked plane and diverted his route, bless them, for they probably saved hundred's of more lives.

may their families lives be filled with joy and love and the peace that passes all understanding.

bald is beautiful

bald is beautiful

our story began on july 2, 2004.  i haven't gone in depth about that because i have been waiting to tell it during childhood cancer awareness month.  which,  if you are wondering,  is september! i won't be telling our story from the beginning.  it's not that i don't want to, it's just that, the story i'm about to share is a bit more powerful to me.  when alyssa was diagnosed in july 2004, she was 16 months old.  she went in and out of brain surgery, like a rock star.  we left 3 days later.  it. was. amazing.  she got her port put in, ear tubes [she had a history of ear infections] and within a month was starting chemo.  was on chemo with breaks for 18 months.  had a year off and during that year, the tumor grew.  got back on chemo.  this went on for 5 years....  

 i used to write a blog called alyssa's blessed journey.  in that blog i wrote about our daily struggles about living "under the cancer umbrella"  i shared our hopes.  i shared our fears.  i shared what encouraged us.  i also shared what kept us going.  during the first 24 hours of our journey, is when i first found God.  it is when i first really heard him.  it is when i surrendered my life to him and never looked back.  that blog was where i shared it all.  i wrote that blog while we were living and breathing treatment. but, then, i stopped. 

 to be quite honest although yes, our lives have everything to do with our daughter's brain tumor juvenile pilocytic astrocytoma of the hypothalamus and we will never forget it and never be able to just pretend it's not a part of us, i found it overwhelming and consuming to not only live it, but to also write about it.  it became my life to the point that no matter where we went before anyone would even say hello, the first thing out of their mouth was "how is alyssa? when is the next mri? how is treatment? does she get sick?"

  i know they mean well, but come on folks, don't you think we have other things going on besides chemotherapy and cbc counts etc? we do have a life outside that hospital.  besides that, i became obsessed with finding other families who were also going through what we were and looking for any kids who had died because of the tumor.  alyssa's tumor is rare.  it is also benign and, thankfully, my research always came up with a very high survival rate.  in fact i never found a death.  the only one i ever heard of was from her doctor and that was a story of a girl who they didn't catch the tumor in time. very possible because of the slow growth, it sometimes does not show signs until it is almost too late and if you are not paying close enough attention or do not know the signs, a parent could very well brush the symptoms off as just another headache.  in fact, had i not known the symptoms, last april we could have very well lost alyssa.  the doctors told us [after of course] she would have only lived another week had i not made the call when i did.

her 7th birthday.  surgery was exactly 28 days later

see, she had made a slight enough change that too me, was not settling well in my spirit. and i couldn't shake it.  headaches that would make her throw up and she'd need to lay down with a cool rag on her eyes and she couldn't stand noise [i suffer from them so i knew it was most def a migraine], she was waking up at the oddest times wanting to eat, but she would take 2 maybe 3 bites and be full, sleeping all the time,  more than usual [she was in kindergarten, so i knew school was tiring with all the playing, but she'd sleep as soon as she'd get home and not want to get up for dinner], then even if you touched her head just the slightest little touch she would burst out in crock tears [brushing her hair was a nightmare].  that was my last straw.  something was off.  very off.  
i called, we took her up that day [i made daddy go, because i just knew she'd be admitted - i thought a shunt would be put in to take pressure off her brain, nurse and i thought maybe cranial pressure for sure so excess fluid and would need to be drained.  i stayed home to pack bags and set up care for the boys.  our best friends would keep them while we were with alyssa.  he went to the clinic, they had an emergency mri because it would show if it was indeed fluid causing the pressure.  and we'd proceed with the drainage tube, or shunt, whichever they felt would be the best option.  i got a call about 1pm.  i was on my way to my friends house to drop the boys off.  alyssa had just gotten out of the mri, it went smoothly and tony was with her waiting for the doctor who's name is ironically also, alyssa.  i love it.  i got to emilee's house and the boy's ran straight to carson's room after quick kisses good bye.  [they had no idea what was going on.  they were used to daddy or i going to birmingham with alyssa for chemotherapy or mri's, so to them, this was a treat.  a sleep over with carson? score!] right then, my phone rings.  i knew it was tony immediately because of the ringtone "love song" by the cure.
"hi babe.  i'm just leaving ems' house.  are we staying in the hospital or a hotel? does it take long to get a shunt? what do they do?" -- i ramble on without even letting him talk. ----- silence --- great.  did i lose connection?  [look at phone, nope.  still connected] i listened again.  still nothing.  so, i speak. "babe? what's wrong?"  he takes a long breath and with a shaky voice he barely gets out "she needs surgery.  tomorrow.  you were right to worry.  you saved her life."  i stop in my tracks and my mouth is about on the floor.  i can feel the rush of blood entering my face.  i need to sit.  i am hot.  all over.  my heart speeds up.  [i was expecting this.  somehow i already knew.  a calm washes over me.]
 "i will tell emilee.  we will have everything under control as far as the boys are concerned.  we won't need to worry about them.  they are in good hands.  i'm heading up there as soon as i talk to ems.  i will call you when i'm on my way." we hung up.  [of course after saying the important i love you] 

[i can't believe i was able to talk at that point.  my voice was calm.  it did not shake.  i did not cry.  inside i was.  inside i was falling apart. but i was being controlled by something else that was not me.  ohmyword.  GOD WAS WORKING THROUGH ME.  HE WAS GUIDING ME AT THAT VERY MOMENT TO HELP MY HUSBAND KNOW THAT IT IS ALL GOING TO BE OK. BECAUSE IT WILL.  OH FATHER, IT REALLY WILL, WON'T IT?] 

so, i go tell emilee the new scoop, this one night sleep over has just become much, much more and i have no idea what to do. [i mean, we are military. we don't have family that we can call up to ask if they can keep the boys for an unspecified amount of time so we can be with our daughter while she has brain surgery to SAVE HER LIFE! that is a lot to ask of a friend. even if is a close friend. it's just not something you can ask of just anyone.] emilee heard my conversation with tony. when i walked in the kitchen, she already knew. she took one look at me and said "give me your house key. the boys will stay here for the weekend and we will figure it all out from there. " that is my friend. that is how she is. i didn't even have to ask. she knew i didn't even have the heart to ask her myself, and i didn't have to. it was one thing to ask for a favor of a one night thing. but for an unspecified time. unheard of. 

because we didn't know how long the boys would be at emilee's house, i called our other very close friends eric and sheila [isaac and gunnar's "church best friend" ethan's parents] and they picked them up after the weekend and kept them at their house for the remainder of the time we were at the hospital with alyssa which ended up being 4 weeks. that is a long time to be away from your children. although, because most of it was spent with alyssa in ICU, it went pretty fast. the ICU is a fast paced place. i was wrapped up in visitation times [which are very odd hours] and learning about how her body was responding to medicine and how it was healing. it was a miraculous time to say the least. 

her tumor had grown three times the size it had started off at. it.was.huge. it was shaped like a heart. the most amazing thing i have ever seen. we have always trusted that God would always guide us in our decisions regarding alyssa and the tumor. we don't want to say "ok, well, let's just do this or that" we really rely on God to tell us what to do. so, when her doctor came in and said she's going into surgery tomorrow. without saying "so, we have a couple of options..." we knew it was a done deal. then, we saw the mri scan and that was our moment of pure peace and comfort. it was as if God was whispering in my ear "this is my will. it is what is to be done. i will work this for good"

night before surgery, alyssa made her courage beads


i trust our team with my entire being. they know us. they respect us. they are bottom line. the best in our state. in my book. there is no other team that can do a better job. period. they explain everything to us. they treat us like family. and, better yet, they treat alyssa like family...they explain things so she will understand them.

she takes her hello-kitty and is wheeled off to surgery
surgery took 9 hours. straight. i.was.scared. i won't even lie. i was worried for my girl. we got phone calls through out the surgery for updates which was nice, every call meant she was alive. you have to prepare yourself for the worst. as bad as that sounds, you really do have to imagine yourself out of your body in case they come back one time to talk to you and it's not the normal phone call or you can sense something is wrong. it's the most morbid feeling you will ever have in your entire life, but it's something you have to do. i simply pray that if God decides he needs her in heaven, to please take her before she feels any pain. then i say a prayer for me. for him to give me the peace that passes all understanding and then add in there that i'd really appreciate it if he wouldn't take her just yet because i'm not quite done raising her....thankfully, he's answered my prayer to allow me to keep her.

we waited. and waited. and waited. and, we waited some more. till finally, we got the call to meet downstairs at the mri waiting room. we could hear some talking down the hall and wouldn't you know alyssa was just a talking away to the nurses while they were pushing her on her bed. it was a great sight to see. she was drugged up of course and being so very silly.

they got 90% of that tumor. it went from the size of a grapefruit. yes. a grapefruit to the size of the tip of your thumb. look. what a difference, right? it hasn't changed since. well, it has changed slightly, it has a teeny bit of fluid in it and it grew in one area and shrunk in another so it evened it out. didn't change the shape of it. weird. so, it's the same size. september 1st marked 17 months since a successful surgery. no chemotherapy. no tumor growth. we were "graduated" to 6 month appointments [mri's every 6 months instead of every 3] and we are enjoying this no chemo break.

she did not know where to look

asleep, in icu about 5 days after surgery
surgery claimed alyssa's left eye. the vision, not the actual eye ball. and, her vision in the right eye is quite bad.  think of it as tunnel vision.  can you imagine living like that?  she is considered "visually impaired" or "partially blind" it does effect her. but she manages quite well.  there are certain times that we pay closer attention to her and make sure she knows to pay attention to her surroundings, but more often than not, she gets used to her environment quite fast and makes it hers.  she is not a fan of big crowds as you can imagine and when walking, holding hands with someone makes her more at ease so they can warn her if there is a curb in case it's not marked properly.  you don't notice these things until you learn to "need" to.  she reads books, she writes stories, she plays outside, dances, swims, you name it.  she does it.  she can't run [although she would love to] very much because the medicine she takes can dehydrate her very fast. playing contact sports or anything that has to do with a ball is out of the picture. she loves cheerleading, ballet, and singing. i love her go getem' attitude. 

in icu she got her hair braided
we don't treat her differently than we do her brothers. i confess i used to baby her. i mean, seriously? do you really expect me not to treat my little girl who has a brain tumor like any normal kid? sorry, i have no idea if what tomorrow is going to bring for her. what problems will arise. so, let me do this. i don't care if i spoil her. until i noticed that she was expecting things from everyone. that got cut off real quick. ooh kids can pick up little habits so fast! 

so, she is 8 now. i understand why some of the moms that reached out to me when we first got diagnosed no longer update their blogs. they too have moved on from that life. you have to eventually. how will you ever grow if you don't venture? like i said, it will always be a part of us. forever. but, do i have to share it with everyone - all the time - in every conversation? no. 

it's about balance. i want alyssa to stay grounded. is she special? you bet your life she is. does she know it? eh, she knows she's a child of God. she knows that she's loved. she knows that she has a brain tumor and she can't see out of her left eye and she needs a magnifying glass to read. she knows she needs to make sure she raises her hand if she doesn't understand something in school. does that make her any more special than anyone else? no. i don't want her to let anything get to her head. her conversations don't need to be "hi, i'm alyssa, i have a brain tumor, what's your super power?" so, yes, she is so special she rocks the house, but, the difference is she has no clue just how special she really is.

1 month after brain surgery, alyssa graduated on time with her kindergarten class!  we were so happy for her and it was such an exciting time to actually see her attend this event!  she was showered with hugs and we were over joyed for her.  this was by far one of the happiest days we had in a long time!  first grade was a success and second grade has been wonderful so far too!  nothing has stopped her.  cancer may have taken her vision, but it has not taken her drive!

Thursday, September 8, 2011

i'm a bloggy mom, are you?

a mom blog community!
if you are not a member,
you need to be!

it all started on tuesday night.  does this ever happen to you?  you find a blog by chance?  well, of course it does, but, do you ever forget how you found it?  because, to tell you the truth,  i have no clue how i ended stumbling across this site!  i will tell you, i am very grateful i found her though!  so, this is where the story begins.

i linked up to my  new fabulous friend's blog  and have entered this whole new world!  i know, that may sound a bit drastic.  but seriously. i went from basically talking to myself to now having 12 followers!  [that was at last check] and i couldn't be more excited!  i know 12 followers is not very much and compaired to some of the other "big baller" blogs [har har har] it's nothing, but to me, it's everything.  to me, it means that what i'm writing is ___________ good/funny/interesting/catching/pulling/  [you can put any word in that little blank] for you to first take the time to follow me on google friend connect [GFC], and second, leave me a comment to encourage me.

i know you have been here, where i am, before you got to your first 20 followers.  it's not that i feel unimportant.  because, i do know that if you truly have a passion for something, and you put forth the effort in that passion, you will succeed.  but, you have to keep your focus.  so, i do appreciate the comments.  i do appreciate you following me and giving me that little boost i needed to know that the hard work i have put into this blog has not been for just "another on line journal".

i was introduced to a  
blog hop and let me say i have had so much fun this week, it's quite ridiculous really.

first, you link up to a party.  check.  i found one.  by accident.  but, hey, there aren't rules.  you don't make an appointment.  you do this to make friends!  to get your blog exposure!  i linked up, and literally started clicking blog after blog.  the linking party i joined was called "wordless wednesday" which, i will continue to be a part of...for a long time.  i don't quite get the whole wordless thing.  at first i didn't post any words.  but, as i read other blogs i saw that they did.  so of course, i am a girl of many many words, so i just can't not write.  i went back and typed up a little story to go with my inspirational pictures.  

well, after visiting blog after blog, linking to this one and that one.   following the ones that completely sparked my interest, liked them on facebook, followed them on twitter [yes, i totally cyber stalk -- but i know everyone is totally ok with that, as am i] i started noticing the same button.
a mom blog community!

ok, so not the exact same one as above, that's just the one i chose to use for this post [you can see the other buttons on my side bar]  but regardless, they are all advertising for bloggy moms; a little slice of internet heaven.  =)

if you are a mom + a blogger this will be the perfect match for you. i got nosey after seeing it on so many of the blogs i liked, and man i am so happy i did.  

there are groups you can join
you can blog 
find friends, add friends, invite friends,
 find other mom's who are blogging in your area
 blog hop through bloggy moms
and much, much more!

take a little time and check out bloggy moms, believe me, you will be happy you did!!

and oh by the way, did i forget to mention, it's free? ya, that.  totally free!

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

w-o-r-d-l-e-s-s = w-e-d-n-e-s-d-a-y [it brings out the kid in me]

wordless wednesday
[a linking party on a school night]

ww #1 [it brings out the kid in me]

this is my first entry for wordless wednesday.  so, i figured there was no better way than to show you who i am by finding little tidbits of inspirational photography that brings out my inner child.  i love [LURV] being a wife and mom.  i am THAT mom who {rEaLlY} plays with her kids.  i mean, gets on their level, even if that means on the floor, in the dirt, in her best jeans, rolling, YES, rolling in it, laughing [LoUdLy], because they can be washed & this moment, the one right now, yes, right now, where i am on the ground, in the dirt, with my child, rolling around, and seeing the gleam in his eyes, that, THAT, will be etched in his memory fOrEvEr, & he will one day, reenact it, & his heart will over flow with the joy that he gets from the gleam he sees in his child's eyes.  the jeans won't matter.  the dirt won't matter.  making memories.  it's about the memories.  below are all captured memories.  sometimes we all just need to sit back and take ourselves there again...even if just for a moment.

finger painting...lets get dirty

bike ride...with the family

swing...really high

lay on a hammock...and take a nap

sidewalk art...for the whole family

this bike is just so retro...i love it

run in the grass tag...freeze tag!

get the biggest lolli you can find...and share it.  

i love rain boots.  wearing them reminds me of being a kid.

go rollerskating...and play shoot the duck!

go puddle jumping...

what are your favorite things to do with your kids that bring you back to your childhood?  what about those huge slides at the fair?  if they'd let me, i'd go in the jumpy castle =) share your stories in the comments section!  can't wait to see what you have to say!

don't forget to link to the partay!  if you decide to become a "follower" that's awesome!  i will show the love right back at~cha!  

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

cinnamon facial ~ burn baby, burn!

*disclaimer:  this facial is not meant to treat, cure or prevent acne or any other skin problem.  the author/creator of this post [erikakey] or host of this blog [] do not claim responsibility for any adverse reaction that you may encounter.  consumer applies mask at own risk and by applying mask you are acknowledging that you are aware that mask may burn skin, irritate eyes, cause redness, itchiness and peeling.  if any of these reactions occur, rinse mask off with water, pat with dry face towel and apply soothing moisturizer once face has air dried.  i have mentioned severe/worse case scenario.   by experimenting with at-home facial, consumer accepts all responsibility and revokes any right to take legal action against either the author of blog/webhost.* 

burn baby burn
it's a home-made
cinnamon facial
[a black head removal technique]

are you wondering why my face looks like i have mud on it?  well, it's not mud.  at the time, i would have much rather had mud on my face believe me.  this my friends is what i call the "burn baby burn" facial.  here are the ingredients:
1T cinnamon
1T brown sugar
1T sea salt 
1T olive oil
1T lime juice
1/2 T milk
in a mixing bowl, combine all ingredients 
work into a paste
put onto face like a mask
let dry [if it burns, only wear for as long as you can possibly stand]
rinse, cleanse using normal routine; may repeat once a week
oh friends, i would love to hear your experience after trying this facial.  my first time trying this facial i did not use milk.  i thought i was going to cry.  the above picture was taken literally 5 seconds before i was about to lose it.  after i snapped the picture, i threw my face in the running shower, i didn't care that my entire shirt was getting wet in the shower, my face was on fire.  if you look closely, under my eyes, where the mask is you can see the redness, and you can see it near my lip and on my chin.  it burned like crazy!  my skin was BEET red for almost 2 hours!  it's the cinnamon.  the next time i did the facial, i added milk [my sister's suggestion] and it was much better.  she also suggested adding honey, but i didn't have any.  
i will admit, the blemishes i did have were not as noticeable the following day so the cinnamon, salt and lime did do their job in that aspect.  my skin also felt tighter and thanks to the olive oil it was soft.  i was very happy with that.  home facials are very beneficial as far as knowing exactly what is in them as well.  it's a nice feeling.  
  so, don't let the burning scare you off.  hey, it smells really good.  it's better than the egg facial.  i can't do that one.  ick.  that's just down right deeee-ssscusting.  [i think i threw up a little in my mouth just thinking about it] 

and on that note i say toodle-oooh

happy anniversary to my hubster tony; 9 years ago today, you became my're my happily ever after...

Monday, September 5, 2011

oh me oh my

ok, let me just be honest.  i have been working on my blog for 2 weeks.  yes.  2 weeks.  every day while the kids are at school.   gunnar has been playing with my iphone reading the books [better yet, they are reading to him but it's still learning, right?] that i downloaded for him so i can get this set up.  this is not as easy as everyone makes it sound.  i love blogs such as tater tots & jellothe house of smiths and my all time favorite is by far 
the idea room.  these websites are put together so well.  i love them to pieces!  they make me want to come back for more!  of course we all know that good blogging has tons to do with first and foremost - a good camera.  i will be investing in one of those soon.  very soon.  secondly - you need to have a clean, crisp, background.  well, thanks to the girls at the cutest blog on the block i not only got a great background, i snagged a few buttons and read up on their "secrets" and learned a few tips from them!  they will also create a custom web page for you if you contact them!  they also write a blog which you can check out 2 moms talk these ladies are awesome in my book!   third - you need to have a site that is easy to navigate through...and then finally have content that is worth reading.  well, i think i have all my ducks in a row. it's a learning process and unless you pay someone [as i'm sure some do] i will be learning all the tricks as i blog along....ahem....i welcome any tips you may have!  like, how do you post in additional pages? for example, i have the when the fruit come out to play page.  i'd love to post little stories about the kids in there.  or make a page for tutorials...and have all the tutorials in there.  does anyone know how to do this?

i have to give a big thank you to my friend huma who is the sweetest blogging buddy i have.  seriously, she reached out to me after i posted a comment on the little hen house [a blog that we both openly & admittedly stalk & i might add morgan, the blog owner totally encourages stalking so it's ok] stating a problem i was having with a html she had written.  she asked me to e-mail her and she'd fix the code.  from that point on we became friends.  we have exchanged e-mails back and forth, usually me telling her what i have accomplished thanks to her.  she has explained so much and has given me the confidence to actually do the research and that's how i found all the information above.  SCORE!  i am so happy to have found her!  she is quite hilarious too which is a bonus.  i mean, come on, we can't read a blog if the writer has dry humor can we? i think not.  and , i mean, how often can we say that we write a blog owner and get a response?  ok, so i didn't actually write huma personally, but i have written other blog owners that i absolutely adore [to whom will remain nameless] that say they love to get e-mail, and asked for advice, but did not get a response.  huma wrote me without me even asking her for advice.  to me, that's super cool.  and, that shows that she's a team player.  so, in honor of how awesome my bloggy world friend huma is, i encourage you to go stop by huma's page and show her some love.  grab her button, share her page, like her on facebook.  and tell her erika sent you --- she'll get a giggle outta that!


Sunday, September 4, 2011

my new happy place

who doesn't think an aqua purse is just a fabulous find?
i, for one just find it beautiful with every fiber of my body.  thank you thank you thank you for sharing

on a bad hair day, how cute is this? i mean, really? the color, the texture, the lovely.  oh the lovely.
sadly, the etsy shop that this headband was found on is no longer open, but you can view my style board 
for other inspirations

this outfit WILL be mine.  i [HEART] polyvore you just have no clue.  you can create an outfit and find out where to get it, and even set a budget because [oh yes ladies are you holding your breath yet?] it not only tells you where to find it, it tells you the price!  [squueeeel!] so, thank you *polyV* i only wish you would have been around earlier.  below, is an outfit I lurv.  you can also find it on my style board

Welcome to my happy place...

.if you haven't figured out what i'm talking about, you are about to be introduced to a wonderful place!  it's better than window shopping.  i've heard it dubbed "the new crack" although i'm not a crack addict, i am a pinterest addict.  on a level i can't quite honestly explain.  yes, i visit it daily.  multiple times.  i love it.  it's like shopping but you aren't spending any money at all.  i am making my dream list and keeping a list but not having to write it down.  it is saving beautiful pictures for me and oh joy [if i weren't busy typing i'd be clapping my hands] i can visit these pictures anytime i want.  i can follow my favorite bloggers, and the people who inspire me and get this the people who inspire them!  yes.  isn't that just the neatest thing ever?!!  if you haven't already joined the pinterest train, you really should stop by.  e-mail me and i will send you an invite, because there is a waiting list.  YES, it's THAT popular so you HAVE to know someone!  isn't that crazy?  so, i will spread the love and invite you.  i cross my heart, girl scout honor, send you an invite and you can start pinning.  but, be warned.  it IS addicting.  and fun.  and makes you feel oh so happy.  so. come on over and join the happy side.  it's fabulous!  you will see!   so, what are you waiting for??  get on over there and start pinning!

alright summer, it's time to say farewell!

i don't know about you, but when september rolls around, i think of leaves changing colors, cooler days and even cooler nights. apple cider and the smells of cinnamon, vanilla and nutmeg floating in the air.  guess what folks.  i live in the south.  my dream of the perfect crisp air and smell of the first wood being burned in the neighbor's fireplace [i say neighbor because i don't have one -- next house, yes, it's on the list] i just love the smell of burning wood.  mmmm mmmm gives me the warm fuzzies.  so, in honor of yearning for the cooler weather i will be posting in a "fall" color...burnt orange.  love this color.
i get happy knowing the holiday's are just around the corner. kid's parties at school are coming up, fun festivities will be happening soon.  all the time to meet other parents and hang out with new people and parents we haven't seen since last year.  it's just an all around fun time.  except the shopping.  i do not enjoy the shopping.  i'd rather just skip that.  crowds bother me.  a lot.  like a lot a lot.  to the point i get sick a lot.  gives me the heebie jeebie's just thinking about it right now.  i get the sweats and nauseated.  i guess i get clausterphobic.  i bet i would do horribly in a big crowded city like new york.  i've always wanted to visit there too.  
so, although i live in the south.  and it seems that the heat will never leave, it will one day do just that.  and when it does, the cooler air will take it's place and i will then be pulling out my scarves and wool coat and boots and i just can't wait.  you just have no idea.  i'm looking forward to the day that i can put my makeup on and not be sweating by the time i am either heading out of the house or even before that.  [mind you, i do have pcos -- if you have this syndrome you know what i'm talking about -- so i am hot all.of.the.time] 
so i leave you with this.  are you ready for the season to change? is it just me or does it seem that this summer has been the longest summer e-v-e-r???

  click here to see where i found the fall picture